So, after I signed up for reunion.com...I wanted see who had been searching for my name under my old high school (like just searching by my name wouldn't get me, right? I still haven't gotten around to changing it to something more common yet)

And it was my father.

Looks like I've got to step up that whole name change thang. I mean, I'm doing okay right now. Not perfect, but okay. This is the last thing I need. I don't want to be found. I'm all grown up and want to do things my way. I don't need them anymore. I just want to be left alone. That's all I really wanted...

I'm okay, really...

I'm thinking about calling my mom.

For those not in the know, I haven't talked to anyone blood related to me in over 3 years. There are a lot of mitigating circumstances around why that I really don't want to get into right now, but let's just say that I suck...a lot. And I don't want my family to know just how much I suck.

I'm not looking for a long serious conversation or anything, just a "Hi, how're you? How's things? Who's dead? Who's sick? Am I an aunt for the third time or did Robyn actually figure out the whole birth control thing?" Just stuff.

And I'll be damned if I know why.
Guess I'm getting soft...fuck...

EDIT: Figured I'd incorrectly spell my sister's name..."y" instead of "i"